♥ Wednesday, July 18, 2007
yes i should be doing ki. but ahh. lets just make this a quick entry. =) lol.
time waits for no man. and suddenly. it seems like this formerly so surreal notion of the a levels is so within reach. and NS and uni isnt anymore like a distant dream. and the apps for the uni. they're a thing on our minds now.
but amidst the excitement of it all, maybe theres a tinge of sadness.. that it all happened too fast. like a beautiful dream as u are about to awake. snap and its over.
LOL. maybe im just annoyed at the reality that i cant be a child again. haha. in kindergarten, being grown up was like a dream (and for that matter even being in primary school seemed like a fairy tale notion. haha) but now. perhaps its literally a dream come true. standing at perhaps the first real crossroad of life. all these 16 (or was it 17 ? didnt feel like either. haha.) years of life comes down to this. but maybe the problem is i dont really remember how i got here.
In the past, being grown up was a dream. whether we wanted to be astronauts, firemen or doctors. but the irony of it all is that now. THE PAST seems like a dream. that will probably leave us crying if we think too much about. haha. in fact, maybe in a weird way, i prefer nightmares to pleasant dreams. dont u just hate it when ur in the best place on earth doing something u always wanted to do (pls no dirty thoughts. HAHA. can already think what some ppl are thinking lol) , and suddenly the alarm clock nudges u from that slumber? kinda like the pathetic fairy tale that ends with 'OH IT WAS JUST A DREAM' and makes u want to punch the author at the end of the book! LOL.
haha. but ya. in retrospect everything happens too fast. haha. but maybe ive become accustomed to it all. accustomed to the joys, disappointments, anxiety, stress, pretense, and everything else of life. ACCUSTOMED i say. but never immuned haha.
anyhow, the best part of the transcience of life here is that it makes me appreciate the things that we do have more. and isnt that what matters? haha. (come on. everyone HAS to agree on that.) lol.
haha. but i still enjoy reading cynical views though. abt the meaning/meaninglessness of it all. and i think shakepeare puts it well in macbeth haha.
She should have died hereafter;
There would have been a time for such a word.
Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death.
Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more; it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.
but what i can conclude from this is that excessive ki promotes intellectual thought. lol. and that it is easier to blog 3000 words than to write my 3000 word independent study. LOL. =)Labels: reflections